Wow, it was a year ago today that we left Spokane and began our adventures of moving from place to place in anticipation of Bryant's final year of grad school to conclude. SO much has happened in the past 12 months, it seems like a million years ago in so many ways.
This past year has been the most trying and stressful of my life that I can remember. I has been filled with wonderful new friends, and life changing events and experiences as well, that's for sure, but to be completely honest, I'm glad this past year is over! Stress and Anxiety have been such a constant in my life this past year, that I'm having a hard time snapping out of it. I feel so uptight and on edge all the time, and to be honest I don't really know why.
However...
We just had a WONDERFUL Stake Conference this weekend. By far the best I have ever attended. Elder Jeffrey R Holland was here--a real treat for the Saints here in the little towns of South East Texas, and not something that happens all that often! We got a new Stake Presidency today, which was a very spiritual event in and of itself, as we got to hear the words of the out-going Stake President who has served for 10 1/2 years in that calling, and who is so obviously loved, admired and respected by the people in this Stake; and the words of the new Stake President who is absolutely the man the Lord has called to fulfill this assignment.
Elder Holland spoke to us about Trials. I felt like he was talking just to me. I do feel I have done the absolute best I could possibly have done dealing with the difficulties, craziness, and down right hard things that have come up this past year. However, I NEEDED to hear what Elder Holland said. I NEEDED to understand the Atonement is something I need to use more in my life. The Atonement is NOT just to be used when you've sinned. It's to be used in all aspects of life--especially our trials! I hope I can put his counsel into action more in my life.
So--as glad as I am that the past 12 months are "past" I am grateful so much for the things I have learned. The growth that has come, and the the strengthening of my faith and testimony. My trials are not over. Like I said, I feel like I'm having a hard time snapping out of my constant state of stress and anxiety. However, I know I'm suppose to learn something from this. And as Elder Holland said in his talk Saturday night:
"Endure, and look forward to Days of Happiness ahead!" These are definitely words for us all to live by!
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I know exactly how you feel! after college jon and I moved to a new state every year till we ended up here, and it has taken me awhile to snap out of the stress/anxiety state you are talking about! I promise it will fade, but in a way it always stays with you--but in a good way i think. It is there to help you appreciate the blessings in the moment. I know I am so glad your stressful year is over and hope this next year is filled with lots of fun times here in Beaumont! I'm super glad you guys ended up here!
Stake Conference was wonderful, huh?! I feel so blessed to listen to Jeffery R. Holland in person. He's one of my favorites!
I think a lot of us stay-at-home moms experience stress and anxiety at some point in our lives. It's good that you are open and talk about it. Some of us (me) tend to keep a lot of feelings hiden inside. I hope you find the comfort that you need. :-)
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