Ready or Not...

With the due date fast approaching, I realize I will have this baby sooner than later! I have a Dr. appt tomorrow, and hopefully we will schedule an induction date for sure. He will be doing the membrane stripping (sorry if that's TMI for some of you!) tomorrow as well, so we could have a baby this weekend sometime! In many ways, I am so ready for this, but in many other ways I am so not! Here is my list that is mostly for me, because I am really getting anxious about this whole thing!

Ready:
I am so tired of the aches and pains of pregnancy, I am ready to get this baby out!

Or Not...
But I know I will just trade one from of exhaustion in for another. It's one thing not to be able to sleep because I'm uncomfortable, it's another to be awakened from a nice deep sleep with a screaming baby!

Ready:
The hospital bag is packed, the apartment is clean, freezer meals are made and all the baby clothes are washed and hung up

Or Not...
No contractions that I could really tell this week, and the Dr. won't induce unless I'm a little more dilated:(

Ready:
I can't wait to see Gracie as a big sister!

Or Not...
Two kids! How am I going to take care of a newborn and still make sure Gracie feels special and loved? She's been my whole world for the past two years!

Ready:
Seeing Bryant once the baby is born. He is the proudest Daddy I've ever seen

Or Not...
For some reason I'm super anxious about the labor and delivery of this baby. It was so easy with Gracie (I slept through the whole thing and pushed 2 1/2 times) that I'm afraid I won't be that lucky again!

Speaking of Bryant:
What a great guy! He just lets me complain, and tries so hard to help me when he can. Despite being 9 months pregnant and HUGE, he still tells me how beautiful I am everyday! He is such a good Daddy. I love how excited Gracie gets when she sees him after he's been gone all day. I hope our girls (and our other future children) know how lucky they are to have a Daddy like Bryant! I'm so glad we came to Oregon together as a family, and he will be right next to me the whole time. I don't think I could do this without him!

Ready:
To get over being tired, slow, fat, hot, uncomfortable and anxious

Or Not....
Too bad I will still be all of those things for a while afterwards anyway

Ready:
To see our new baby girl
Have my sister here for 2 1/2 weeks
Take lots of pictures
Get back to the gym
Enjoy our new family of four

Or Not...
Going through labor--again, I'm afraid it won't be as easy as last time
After birth contractions (those hurt!)
Trying to figure out how to deal with two kids while completely exhausted
Seeing how much weight I have to loose even after the baby is born

Ready:
I am so grateful to be a mother. I realize what a privilege it really is, and how many women want children that can't have one. I hope I can make our Heavenly Father proud as I strive to teach my children the gospel.

So Ready or Not....Here we go (I hope)!